Poetry by Jim: My Depression

 

I sit
I lay
I stare
I stand

 

but don’t relax
but don’t rest
but don’t focus
but don’t test

 

I whisper
I scream
I touch
I weep

 

but don’t speak
but don’t fly
but don’t feel
but don’t cry

 

I breath
I creep
I peek
I hide

 

but don’t exhale
but don’t reveal
but don’t uncover
but don’t conceal

 

you notice
you question
you worry
you forget

 

but can’t grasp
but can’t relate
but can’t fathom
I can’t

 

by Jim McDonald

Poetry by Jim: I missed it

I missed writing poetry
short stories I do like
but a lyrical sound
structured verses
feels right
rhyming words
are special to me
seven more poems
is a chapbook you see

by Jim McDonald

Poetry by Jim: déjà vu.

the caller ID
screamed out her name
I shivered with joy
did she feel the same

he’s hurt she said
her brother she meant
please come and help
my fears won’t relent

I rushed to her aid
not knowing the plight
she pointed that way
too familiar the sight

I stepped to his form
I saw pale as a bone
I thought I’d be brave
I reached for my phone

A twenty five in his ear
a really good friend
little blood this time
not like my kin

déjà vu I did feel
before was my brother
mom called me then
now it’s another

surprised I was not
his pains were many
physically he hurt
and fervor was plenty

she trembled with shock
she couldn’t communicate
she couldn’t even murmur
she thought am I awake

he sat without motion
his name was Mike
he’ll never smile again
he looked ghostlike

call turned from pleasure
to pain and despair
I look at her now
still a nightmare

by Jim McDonald